I do.

I am very much looking forward to the day I get to marry my best friend this September. However, the planning bit of that big day, has passed the blissful state and entered the 7th circle of panic in my world. I think my better half is none the wiser, which is fine. I can't understand his world of theory, electrons, and computer programming, so why should he care about flowers and invitations right? Well this sentimental sap of a writer does. True, it is all about prioritizing everything and truly the invitations rank pretty low, but still, the amount of time and effort that goes into this should warrant me at least part-time compensation. Don't get me wrong, it is fun in some respects, but bearing it all is a bit overwhelming at times.

Perhaps it is a right of passage, but I think I have entered the "we should have eloped phase," which is followed closely by the "courthouse is sounding good right about now" chapter.

vacation

I would really like to plan a nice, one-week vacation in the next few months. Just throwing it out there. I think I would really love to go to Ireland, but only going for a week might be a wee bit short. I shall explore.

Happiness

In determining what will ultimately make me happy in life, my daily life, and my future life, I have decided to pursue being a wedding coordinator again. Ultimately, I value the flexibility it offers, the ability to travel, take an afternoon off, and be a mom later. I am very excited at the prospect of doing this in about 7 mos.

thankful

After a week of My Boy being home now, I am eternally grateful that he made it home back to me, and of course to his family and friends too. I wish I was able to dip into his personal Pensieve and see all of his memories firsthand, but hopefully over time he will recount new stories for me as I am eager to listen and hear the tales. Someday I hope to be able to go on adventures just him and I, and see remarkable sights together.

weird.

It is strange to watch events play out that I used to attend. I don't know if I am offended, surprised, or just intrigued that I was not asked to be there. I guess I am more interested in the reasoning from the people who put it on.

The Boy Who Survived Death

Never have I been sucked into a series since The Babysitters Club, as much as I have with the Harry Potter books. I don't know what it is about the stories, but they capture so much emotion, suspense, thrills, adventure and fantasy. I feel like kind of a nerd--and not a nerd that is going dress up and march off to a convention and start practicing spells on friends or anything, but am intrigued by the specials on television and hearing people's theories..just for fun though.

That is what I have been looking forward to at the end of my days these past weeks, as time ticks by and I wait for My Boy to come home, it's three teenage friends of mine that I spend time with in the late hours...wow I AM a nerd.

"Oh the Places You'll Go"

I was a little surprised to never receive this obligatory gift for neither my high school or college graduation. Maybe if I had received it it would have provided some insight for what I am supposed to do with my life. I feel like I am at a point where I need to decide, right now, and be happy forever. I am beginning to realize there is no perfect job, but I do want to do something with the bulk of my day that makes me happy and is gratifying. I have thought about going back to school to get my credential to be able to work as an ASB Advisor in a junior high or high school, but the problem with that is that my BA is in Communications-not really applicable. So I have no idea what I would do. Then there is also the idea of owning my own wedding planning business. That is something that I am good at, enjoy, and don't need much prep for-no going back to school.
Maybe making a list of pros and cons would be helpful.

Wedding Planner
+ Experience from internship
+ Good at
+ Mentor in Bre
+ Fun job
+ Know how to advertise
- Unstable
- Lack of health insurance
- Mercy of people hiring you


ASB Advisor/Teacher
+ Event planning component still there
+ Work well with others, including students
+ Inspired to help kids out and make HS or MS enjoyable
+ Summers off, winter break, HEALTH INSURANCE
- Go back to school
- Don't even know what goes into going back to school bc of teaching portion-what other classes? English seems most obvious, but I don't have an English degree
- Student loans would be necessary to continue

I need help.